What can I say about breastfeeding my daughter Sofia than to say that I love it? It’s the most amazing thing in the world to nurse your newborn baby and the bond it brings between mother and baby.
Sadly, some women choose not to do it, whereas others try but for some reason or another they can’t. From the start with Sofia I had lots and lots of problems. She didn’t want to do it at first, other times she was just bored and lazy, and other times she would be too angry and just didn’t want to put in the effort.
But we persevered together and now at four months old she has had mainly breast milk for the first four months of her life. It feels great to say that we have hit this stage. Especially, considering I dried up with my son after just two weeks.
But here I am again on the verge of drying up….
I have not actually tried up yet but I know its well on the way. I have not produced more than an ounce for her in 2 days and when she is used to 20 ounce or more per day, you just know that this is the end of the breastfeeding days.
This actually makes me really sad, because I love breastfeeding and watching my baby have her milk.
I have tried drinking excessive amounts of water to help bring it on, but it just filled them up again the once and they have not really produced any milk since!
So yesterday I made the decision to quit breastfeeding for the sake of both myself and Sofia and for my own sanity. She is slowly being introduced to solids anyway and as I have managed the first few months of her life I am happy.
In the back of my mind there is the question as to why I dried up. Well they always say that dehydration, stress and a bad diet can all be factors in this. In reality I have had all three of these in the last week.
We have moved house, it’s suddenly got hot so even drinking 4 litres of water a day and breastfeeding is not solving that problem, then on top of this moving house and diets don’t mix!
I now have to think about what I am eating more and the exercise I am getting, because I can no longer say that I am burning excess amount of calories from sitting there on the sofa feeding Sofia!
Though, now we have properly moved house and the stress is slowly going away I will be able to enjoy exercise and eating properly once again.
On another note – since stopping yesterday this has been the first real urge I have had to get pregnant again and I am super broody!